Thursday, February 2, 2017

Yours, Mine, and Ours

I love my son. I do. He's only been here 5 short months and already he's such a big part of our life. I love him so much that the thought of not having him with me hurts my heart and brings tears to my eyes. Now, I'm not trying to be morbid or make anyone sad. But I know the fear I have felt other parents have also felt. I have wanted to go to other mothers and ask, "How do you do it? How do I keep the fear of losing this precious person that is my child from overwhelming me?" How do these people, at a young age, not just fall apart when they lose a spouse or child? I'll share with you something that was revealed to me this weekend. My son does not belong to me. My own life it's not even mine. No matter what I do I cannot keep my son here with me if Jesus wants David with Him. And whether I choose to acknowledge it or not, David belongs to my Lord. 
“Then Job arose and tore his robe and shaved his head and fell on the ground and worshiped. And he said, "Naked I came from my mother's womb, and naked shall I return. The Lord gave, and the Lord has taken away; blessed be the name of the Lord." In all this Job did not sin or charge God with wrong.”
‭‭Job‬ ‭1:20-22‬ ‭
Job tore his robes and worshiped. He worshiped! All his children had died and all his possession were gone, yet he worshiped. He knew that all those things had been given to him by God. He also knew that God could take them away as he acknowledged here. I've been given a family, a husband, and a son by my Heavenly Father. He could choose to take them away, and get this, it would be what is best. I trust him for my future, for my husband's future, and for my sons future. He is the only one that can see the big picture. Like we are able to see the whole story of Job, we know that everything works out for his best in the end. God has already seen my story and everyone else's from start to finish. I want my life to bring glory to Him. That's what I'm here for! Everything is His, even those things that He has given to me for a short time. Blessed be the name of the Lord.
You want to know something else? God loves my son more than I could ever hope to. He knows what is best for me, my husband, and my son. I have given God my life. I have surrendered my wants, needs, comfort, everything to my Savior. It is nothing more than what He deserves! He gave everything for me so that I could have eternal life with Him instead of what I deserve. I'm so thankful for everything that He has given me this side of heaven! I pray He gives me the wisdom to use it all to His glory. 

Thank you so much for visiting my blog! I hope this has encouraged you! Blessings! 
Cali Sims